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Saturday, January 31, 2009

Necessary noise ... part 14



Three of the best hours of music, words and performance you could imagine: Leonard Cohen and his brilliant band under a late summer's stunning sunset and night sky at Pokolbin in the NSW Hunter Valley. He surpassed all my hopes and expectations.

Photos by Spike.









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Friday, January 30, 2009

John Martyn



I saw him in concert in Glasgow, at the City Halls. I was sixteen or seventeen. There was him and Danny Thomson. Half way through John Martyn got into an argument with a guy in the audience (it might have had something to do with JM's wife Beverly). JM climbed off the stage and chased the guy out of the hall. We were all younger. RIP man, RIP.

John Martyn: a music legend remembered in The Guardian

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Thursday, January 29, 2009

Gifts from a friend



So ... Ms Starr went to the Entertainment Centre last night with her mum and dad to see Leonard Cohen. Today Miss Millie tells me that when she heard Mr Cohen sing Anthem she thought of me. Go figure.

Spike investigated his tour dates and, due entirely to her perseverance, we're off to see LC on Saturday at a Hunter Valley winery in Pokolbin ... and her mum and dad will be joining us too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Perfect spot for a picnic

At Centennial Park the perfect spot for an Anansi Boys picnic is just over the grassy knoll that separates this pond from the lilly pond. It's there that Coots reveal themselves to be as daft as ... coots, I suppose.

For an Anansi Boys picnic the following components constitute the bare minimum requirements:

* orange juice
* tomatoes
* chedder chees
* yam
* anything Greek
* bottle of post-murder Chablis
* Jaffa cakes (or eqivalent)

Picture by Marie Robertson

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Some days are quad days

So ... the two small wounds on the back of one's right leg finally close and you think, we're on the way to healing at last; and you think, I might make it to the swimming pool soon after all. Then you discover a not-so-small damaged area on your left buttock, which makes you think ... and where did that come from as well as wondering ... how many holes in his bum does one man need?. So you get out the granuflex (which is lovely looking, isn't it?) to begin the repair job and healing, which will be slow because you've got very bad quadriplegic's blood circulation.

Some time later you knock you toes against a book case and only later do you discover (with a little help from a friend) that you've more or less ripped off a toe nail. That explains the massive sweating, which is probably a substitute for pain responses.


You begin to wonder ... will we ever go swimming?

Yes (but not this week or next).
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Sunday, January 25, 2009

Robert Burns ...born 250 years ago today













To a Louse


- On seeing one in a lady's bonnet at church.


Ha! whare ye gaun, ye crowlin ferlie?
Your impudence protects you sairly;
I canna say but ye strunt rarely
Owre gauze and lace,
Tho faith! I fear ye dine but sparely
On sic a place.

Ye ugly, creepin, blastit wonner,
Detested. shunn'd by saunt an sinner,
How daur ye set your fit upon her -
Sae fine a lady!
Gae somewhere else and seek your dinner
On some poor body.

Swith! in some beggars hauffet squattle:
There ye may creep, and sprawl, and sprattle,
Wi ither kindred, jumping cattle;
In shoals and nations;
Whare horn nor bane ne'er daur unsettle
Your thick plantations.

Now haud you there! ye're out o sight,
Below the fatt'rils, snug an tight,
Na, faith ye yet! ye'll no be right,
Till ye've got on it -
The vera tapmost, tow'rin height
O Miss's bonnet.

My sooth! right bauld ye set your nose out,
As plump an grey as onie grozet:
O for some rank, mercurial rozet,
Or fell, red smeddum,
I'd gie you sic a hearty dose o't,
Wad dress your droddum!

I wad na been surpris'd to spy
You on an auld wife's flainen toy;
Or aiblins some bit duddie boy,
On's wyliecoat:
But Miss's fine Lunardi! fye!
How daur ye do't?

O Jeany, dinna toss your head.
An set your beauties a' abread!
Ye little ken what cursed speed
The blastie's makin!
Thae winks an finger-ends, I dread,
Are notice takin!

O wad some Power the gift tae gie us
To see oursels as ithers see us!
It wad frae mony a blunder free us,
An foolish notion:
What airs in dress an gait wad lea'e us,
An ev'n devotion!

1786

Robert Burns at Wiki

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Saturday, January 24, 2009

Too hot today for me ... look after your rabbit, if you have one

One of the marvels of Google is that merely by typing the words "hot weather" into the search box you may stumble upon a page headed "Rabbits & weather - hot weather information" by Jane Morrison.

It is hot and I do hope my friend the rabbit is keeping herself cool in one of the family's tin sheds. I'm a heat-absorbing quad so I'm not even thinking about crossing the threshold today.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Year of the Ox starts

Spike and I sat in Belmore Park at lunch time, surrounded by the hustle and bustle of final preparations for this evening's launch of the year of the ox. It was hot so there was more than a little exasperation and frustration in evidence as people sorted their tents of Buddhist charities, hare krishna brown rice, private health insurance and all the rest. Short-tempered men squeezed promotional Volkswagons into tight spaces between trees and portaloos. A bored man driving a fork lift truck deposited refrigerator units to ice cream tents. Swarming through the construction site, dozens of body-painted cricket fans .... slightly worse for their morning's drinking sessions and the lunch time humidity ... made their way to Central station and the Sydney Cricket Ground for the one day-day match against South Africa.

We sat on a bench in the shade of a tree watching the chaos organise itself. We shared a smoked salmon salad and an egg sandwich, while Spike read aloud from John Boyd's Pollenators Of Eden (chapter 8). I can't tell you how good it was to be there, out of the office; remembering there's a real world.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

The Magic Flute

Barking mad, unless you're an eighteenth-Century Mason. But the music is lovely and the singing was truly captivating. Emma Pearson's two arias as Queen of the Night were stunning. The crowd in the opera house was simply stopped in its tracks by the second piece and we roared our appreciation until we didn't know what to do next. So we sat back and enjoyed the rest of the show with its neat little resolutions of boy meets girl stories and the more than slightly incredible idea (these days) of Masonic good triumphing over the female / night's evil. Me? I'm on the side of the lady who sings from the Moon.

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart.

Opera Australia web site.

Cristina Ricci (my friend rather than the movie actor) enjoyed the show, knocked out (like everyone else) by the Queen of the Night. So that's good ... my purchase of a pair of subscription series seats has not been rendered entirely meaningless by last year's difficulties. Michael Parkinson was in the audience. There was a time, in the 1970s, when his chat show really was essential viewing. He seemed happy enough as he dropped into his limo seat at the end of the night.
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Monday, January 19, 2009

I have no idea where this is going ...

It is a truth in nature and one of the great mysteries of the natural world that every salmon born in the wild leaves its birth place, covers vast distances of open ocean during its adult life then, when the inexorable impulse of its genetic code dictates and if the fish survives the dangers of a hostile world, each and every salmon makes the journey home to where its life commenced to spawn the next generation. Some species of salmon repeat this cycle up to five times before the fish diminishes then dies. The truly amazing fact of this return is that the salmon returns not simply to the region or area of its birth but to the precise spot in which its life began. No one who has studied the fish knows exactly how or why. As far as we can tell, however, it has never occurred to any salmon to reflect on the mystery of its journeys or ask either of those unanswerable questions.
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Sunday, January 18, 2009

Indecision is not always what you think it might be

So - I didn't make a decision
to buy cheap polyester trousers
nor did I purchase any shoes
and I couldn't make up my mind
about a fifteen dollar tea set
with white cups and saucers,
white tea pot, milk jug and
a sugar bowl - white, of course.
And I wasn't quite sure about
whether or not to buy another
granuflex dressing for my leg,
which seems to be healing,
nor was I sure if I needed
any groceries after all
so I entered neither Woolies
nor Coles, which I never use
anyway ...

............................but I did forget
my house key, which was dense of me.
So I called Sharon, who rescued me
as Sharon has rescued me before

................ arriving with a spare key
from which the key-cutting guy cut
two copies, while Sharon bought
pillows and an i-pod docking station,
then we sipped chai latte tea,
whatever that's supposed to be,
before Sharon went home, while I
frittered away indecisive moments
unable to choose between Thai,
Chinese and Indian fast food
outlets on the Mall's fourth floor
then settled on Wonton Vegetable
Noodle Soup from the Chinese... but
that turned out to have pork in it.
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Saturday, January 17, 2009

Encouraging words

"Dear Shaz,

Thank you for the manuscript. I finished it yesterday and have been digesting my reactions.

I would definitely encourage your friend to keep submitting it and keep writing. It has a strong and distinct voice that I found generally enjoyable, entertaining and easy to keep with.

I found many of the observations funny and the events sad/thought provoking/informative.

I can offer other comments but don't want to overstep the bounds as I think you said you were just looking for a broad reaction.

How would you like me to arrange to return it to you, and also, when is our next book group?

Regards,
Heather"

Thursday, January 15, 2009

The Barons Of Tang

According to the web site we checked-out, BOT would be playing at The Famous Spiegeltent in Hyde Park at eight o'clock. There was only one small error in that information ... the band came on stage at Midnight. Still, it was a blast. The band is a lot of fun, the music is good and Spike got to dance to her heart's delight for an hour and a half. It was three o'clock by the time our heads hit the pillow ... maybe closer to four.

Barons Of Tang at MySpace.




All clouds have a silver lining, though. To fill in some of the four hours we found ourselves suddenly confronted with, we bought tickets to a dance show by Wendy Houston - Desert Island Dances. Quirky is the word, I suppose, which springs too easily to mind. But I enjoyed the show.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

My swollen leg ...

... keeps me in bed all day. It's a real pain in the arse to be required to stay in bed against one's wishes but because you have to. There's not much a quad like me can do so I read a few pages of Trader, read some pages of Eleven Kinds Of Loneliness, didn't read any pages of Coraline; ate two plums, a few grapes and a white peach; slept more than I ought to have slept; spilled tea on the books after Spike got home. Missed my poetry group. Damn swollen leg.

But there was one "wow!" So it was not an entirely wasted day.
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Petals Of Blood

I tried to get into this book, chosen as the subject of the monthly reading group at the Museum of Contemporary Art. I have tried and I'll try again but its didactic, heavy-handedness really gets in the way of telling a story.

That seems rather churlish as a judgement on the writing of a man (Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o) who spent time in an Kenyan jail for what he wrote.



Lady with Ocelots by Yinka Shonibare MBE

Monday, January 12, 2009

Trust me, I'm a doctor

So ... you visit your GP because you have what looks like a mild infection in an old would on your right leg and you're given Cephalexin. That seems fair enough, although I don't really like taking drugs. But Dr Mann tells me the antibiotic will assist not only the old wound but clear up my urinary tract, which I think has something to do with my sweating.

Then you start up a conversation about parenting (maybe) at some unspecified point in the medium term future, which means some time before I'm dead - an event that could occur almost any day ... meteor strike on Ashfield, run over by the proverbial bus (although I don't see how any bus would fit in the lift to reach the fourth floor) or, if I'm truly unlucky, I could simply spontaneously combust ... you know ... explode, right here; right now!

.... fortunately that didn't happen just then but, it turns out, an exploding Dougie is not quite as fanciful as it seems.

Conception requires sperm and an egg. Sperm, as we know, comes from where it comes from (for which all boys are eternally grateful to the Cosmic Biologist for the way He's organised things ... whoever conceived - pardon the pun - of ejaculation, by the way, HAD to be male). Anyway ... in high-level quads there is a risk of an autonomic dysreflexic response to ejaculation. The details don't matter but a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away I had such a moment of crisis. Did the Earth move for you Dougie? Move? It nearly crushed me to death ... as the hospital staff will testify.

So, given that I'm a quad and given that one has broached the subject of conception with one's not-girlfriend and given that the whole idea has not been immediately laughed out of court as evidence of an old man's barking madness, one naturally raises the topic of sperm, ejaculation, autonomic dysreflexia and possible death with one's GP. Her advice is to experiment cautiously. (And if that's not a something of a dampner on one's ego driven proclivity to procreate wildly I don't know what is). To be on the safe side, however, I'm prescribed with a Nitrolingual Pumpspray. Two skooshes under the tongue in any moment of autonomic dysreflexic crisis swiftly lowers the blood pressure but don't ask me how ... speaks sternly to it maybe.

So that's comforting ...

... until you open up Google.

It turns out that my Nitrolingual Pump SL-Spray 400 mcg/dose goes by the name (in brackets in smaller type) of Glyceryl Trinitrate Pump ... better known to you and me as nitroglycerene, which (according to Wiki) "in its undiluted form ... is one of the more powerful explosives ... [which] makes it highly dangerous to transport or use."


Nitroglycerene doctor? Ah well, the things we do for love.

Kaboom!!!!

Happy birthday Martin

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Monet in the park





We had a lazy start to Sunday then visited the Art Gallery of NSW to have a look at the Monet exhibition. The gallery was heaving with large numbers of people from just about all walks of life and all ages drawn to some 'great' works of art. There were indeed some lovely paintings by Monet and other impressionists: haystacks (of course) and the facade of the cathedral; images of water lilies and a Japanese bridge in the garden at Giverney (not Givenchy as I wrote in an article years ago!).

After a very late lunch in the mobbed gallery cafe we strolled through the Botanic gardens where, next to the statue of a boy removing a thorn from his foot, we assembled a forty-piece Monet jigsaw puzzle, taking more time than either of us thought we might take. Spike read to me from John Boyd's The Pollenators Of Eden - a piece of very 1970's science fiction ... but fun.
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Saturday, January 10, 2009

Cavalleria rusticana / Pagliaci



Saturday night at the Sydney Opera House for 'Cav & Pag' as I believe they are known. Lovely music and some fine singing. The total effect, however, seemed somehow less than the sum of its parts. Don't know why.
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Friday, January 09, 2009

Twilight

I'm not exactly in the demographic sub-section thought of as prime audience for stories about teenage romance triumphing over the prejudices of hostile families and social mores. But I've seen worse movies by far in the recent past and the sixteen-year old girls behind us in the cinema seemed to love it.

The light of dawn

Do not to me bring sorry tales
of men who feared too much,

who saw too little in their time
to dream of more than they
might grasp in trembling hands

too scared to touch life’s chances
despite those others’ madness;

those daft old fools, dreaming
in the sleepless hours of days
not yet
released from darkness
into dawn’s transforming light,
who turn like dew to greet the sun

and kissed by life's eternal fire
lift up and smile as fears expire.
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Necessary noise ... part 13

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Charlie

Some years ago now, maybe ten, my good friend Charlie Angus died. He was forty-six years old, married to Kate and they were parents to two young boys.

Charlie had been diagnosed with cancer of the jawbone, which was life-threatening in its own right. After an operation and a spell in hospital, however, Charlie was given the all-clear so he went home. The surgery / drugs / trauma ... who knows what ... must have weakened Charlie so that not long after he returned home to convalesce he collapsed. An artery had burst and he bled to death. He died in Kate's arms.

The eulogy for Charlie was delivered by his friend and boss, Jeane (who is also my first, long-divorced wife). While preparing her thoughts for what was always going to be a tough speech Jeane talked to me about her difficulty in finding some idea or image of Charlie to use to frame her words about him. I thought about it for a day or so then hit upon the poem below (by Norman McCaig, who I knew a little when I was a student at Stirling University). Jeane agreed that the poem was a good fit so she used it to end her words, delivered as she stood next to Charlie's coffin.

Shortly after Jeane stopped speaking, Charlie in his coffin was lowered out of sight and into oblivion by some crematorium lift mechanism to the accompaniment of the tune The Northern Lights of Old Aberdeen. We wept and smiled. As ever, Charlie came and went on his terms.

Praise of a man

He went through a company like a lamplighter -
see the dull minds, one after another,
begin to glow, to shed
a beneficent light.

He went through a company like
a knifegrinder - see the dull minds
scattering sparks of themselves,
becoming razory, becoming useful.

He went through a company
as himself. But now he's one
of the multitudinous company of the dead
where are no individuals.

The beneficent lights dim
but don't vanish. The razory edges
dull, but still cut. He's gone: but you can see
his tracks still, in the snow of the world.

I've no idea what brought all this to mind, except that I miss my friend Charlie. That (of course) but also, I guess, because I've been wondering about myself lately, although I can't claim to have reached any conclusions. Silly old fool.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

And today's question is ...

just how many Bisacodyl enemas does it take to evacuate the bowel of only one paralysed man?

Correct. Too fucking many.
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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Good bread



Multi grain bread, 750 g by Luneburger German Bakery Sydney Australia

You know, there are worse ways to end a day than this: firstly, you find a parking spot on Pitt Street without driving round the block for what seems like days. The lift down to Town Hall Station is working, as is the lift in the Galleries Victoria (who chooses these names?). Mind you it only seems to want to go up to the second floor, not down from it but that's okay because I'm in search of books at Kinokuniya after which I take the goods lift back to the basement.

The book store was quiet, almost tranquil although I doubt that this Japanese-owned megastore ever attains that Zen like state. I bought Petals Of Blood by Ngugi Wa Thiong'o and A World Of Difference: an anthology of short stories from five continents (which is part of my strategy to win the Ulrick literature prize in 2009 ... not!).

Back underground I visited the wunderbar German bakery where a delightful young woman with an accent just like that of Jamie Lee Cutis in Trading Places sliced the loaf I bought, placed my cheese roll delicately in the paper bag with terrifically efficient tongs then added a blueberry strudel (for free because ... but never finished her sentence). It truly is great bread and who would have expected to find it there in the subway passage leading to a railway station.

On the way home I stopped off at the new mega-bottle-shop to buy a Shiraz for Michael Small to say thanks for binding Amelia's play in a book called S S Heliotrope. The guys in the bottle shop must love customers like me. I don't drink alcohol (although I had a mouth-full ... literally but don't ask ... of vintage champagne with the New Year's fireworks up a hill near Windsor). So I asked for a bottle of decent Shiraz because that's what Michael would like.

To drink immediately or lay down for a while, the shop assistant inquired?

Need one ask?

So ... for imbibing tomorrow ... he suggested St Hallet, a Blackwell Shiraz 2007 from the Barossa Valley in South Australia. It could be turpentine for all I know but I doubt it. I hope Michael enjoys it, although I doubt his pleasure will come even one hundredth of the way towards the fun I had writing the play for Millie (see the almost unbelievable but, in a way, wonderful night of 14th November when the peerless Lettie Lariot was born).

Anyway ... here ends the prosiac tale of the simple pleasures of an ordinary man. Happy but tired and ready for his bed.
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Monday, January 05, 2009

First Monday back at work ...

... and one thinks of T S Eliot's Preludes which (according to this page on the web) "deals with spiritually exhausted people who exist in the impersonal, tawdry modern city. "Preludes" impressionistically captures the impoverished spiritual lives of those living in a lonely, sordid, decadent culture."

It's not really how I feel but it fits parts of my day somehow. Go figure.

PRELUDES

I

The winter evening settles down
With smell of steaks in passageways.
Six o'clock.
The burnt-out ends of smoky days.
And now a gusty shower wraps
The grimy scraps
Of withered leaves about your feet
And newspapers from vacant lots;
The showers beat
On broken blinds and chimneypots,
And at the corner of the street
A lonely cab-horse steams and stamps.
And then the lighting of the lamps.

II

The morning comes to consciousness
Of faint stale smells of beer
From the sawdust-trampled street
With all its muddy feet that press
To early coffee-stands.

With the other masquerades
That times resumes,
One thinks of all the hands
That are raising dingy shades
In a thousand furnished rooms.

III

You tossed a blanket from the bed
You lay upon your back, and waited;
You dozed, and watched the night revealing
The thousand sordid images
Of which your soul was constituted;
They flickered against the ceiling.
And when all the world came back
And the light crept up between the shutters
And you heard the sparrows in the gutters,
You had such a vision of the street
As the street hardly understands;
Sitting along the bed's edge, where
You curled the papers from your hair,
Or clasped the yellow soles of feet
In the palms of both soiled hands.

IV

His soul stretched tight across the skies
That fade behind a city block,
Or trampled by insistent feet
At four and five and six o'clock;
And short square fingers stuffing pipes,
And evening newspapers, and eyes
Assured of certain certainties,
The conscience of a blackened street
Impatient to assume the world.

I am moved by fancies that are curled
Around these images, and cling:
The notion of some infinitely gentle
Infinitely suffering thing.

Wipe your hand across your mouth, and laugh;
The worlds revolve like ancient women
Gathering fuel in vacant lots.


Sunday, January 04, 2009

We're not in Scotland, Toto





Pictures, including the Dooralong thistle, by Spike Deane

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Not quite The Sound Of Music

The photo arrived today in an e.mail from Scotland, sent by John Murray (older brother of my great childhood friend Gordon who is standing next to me in the photo. He's wearing a blue sports shirt with a white trimmed neck line). It all took place a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away.

Who is that dorky 14 year old with the tea cosy on his head standing just in front of the cross? Ooops ... it's me.

My older brother is there, sitting fourth from the right (as one looks at the photo). Years later, the guy sitting next to him killed himself.

We were younger then. Our world was simpler; a big adventure. Still is.

fear not

take me no more to the dead places
where fools are doomed to dwell
in fearful dreams we vaguely recollect

ghosts in less than fertile imaginings
who, like all figments, hover and lurk
in the crowded corridors of tired lives

possessed of little meaning, even less
of purpose, except our daily grind
of coffee beans and ancient axes both

once sharp enough, we used to think,
to wake us from this heavy slumber;
men too terrified of dreams and doubts.
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Friday, January 02, 2009

The Day The Earth Had A Quiet Nap After All The Festivities ...

Keanu Reeves isn't as bad as some people say. i quite liked him in this nonsense but it is the dullest, deadliest bore you could imagine. A bit like the original in that sense, which is hugely over-rated.

Thursday, January 01, 2009